This is my first day taking Ritalin. 20mg, twice a day, of the generic equivalent of this drug for ADHD.

The question that keeps coming back to me — wondering, I suppose, how far this drug will go — is, will the music go away?

I have had music playing in my head constantly for as long as I can remember.  Sometimes two pieces at once, vying for dominance in my attention.  I like playing with them, seeing how closely I can balance them against each other.

Since the revelation that I am almost certainly ADHD-I (“inattentive” ADHD — the non-hyperactive version), I have begun to assume that this is just another manifestation of the disorder.

If the music goes away, I imagine a cavernous, echoing silence in my brain.  If a thought asserts itself, it will echo like a lonely footstep in an enormous vaulted-arch hall.

I wonder.

It has been 2-1/2 hours since I took the first pill, so it should be kicking in by now.  My head feels strange, there’s some pressure on the sides, a couple inches behind my temples.

To work now.

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